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Wednesday, February 22, 2012

Wo phir nahi aate..


One year since mama has gone. Live life King-size...people just say that,he did that. Many people lead a glorious life,but he was glorious in his death too.

If you are not of my family or one of my closest friends then please do not read any further,for you won't understand the feelings behind this post,unless you have loved and lost a family member.

gagan,deepak,mama,me,mohika,niharika oct 2010

Mama was a samurai by heart,strong willed,determined,undefeated by anything life had to throw his way and yet very very God fearing spiritual person and an amazing family man. I was always surprised by his ability and promptness to help any one of family and friends in need. Full of life and vibrant with energy there was never a dull moment around him. With him we were always laughing,chirping,chatting and having fun. Life was " L.I.F.E " around him.

gagan,mama,me and angel- Chambal-boating Oct 2010

Being the youngest in family he was much loved by everybody and also favourite one of all of us children. He had pampered us all bad and spoiled us thoroughly with his never failing love and care.

bachha party with mama

None of us can forget the numerous trips to ice cream stores and vacations in mussourie. We all had been at the receiving end of his generosity. Gifts,clothes,perfumes he used to shower all of that at us much like his love and protection.Children of our family used to love his company,nothing else would do for us! House was always full of squeals and cries of 'raju mama' or 'raju chacha' . He had love of his elders too in equal amounts! He was the one person everybody would seek for in need of councel or advice,children and grown-ups alike.He was and is loved dearly by his brother,sisters and the rest of the family too.

All those who had known him knows he always had something to share with everyone. This post i dedicate to him and would just write a thing or two that either i had heard from him or i just picked from being on his side.

niharika,mohika and angel with mama

First of those things was to love and respect our parents beyond anything and anyone in this world. This one thing that he emphasized in all and every talk that we ever had, i took a 'little' extra time to learn. Actually this first lesson that he wanted me to learn sunk in deep only after he was gone. In many ways his demise became the single most important turning point in my life. And believe me by saying this i am NOT exaggerating this fact in any way.

niharika,gagan,mama,mami,me,mum,dad at gurgaon hypercity mall- Dec 2010

For me he was my mama then,my maternal uncle,a loving family man with flamboyant personality loaded with oodles of confidence and zest for life. But on this day last year he became my guiding light,my mentor,to whom NOW i could talk to anytime i want! Strange how death brings people closer than they ever were in life ! The last time i talked to him was on my birthday last year,we had a short conversation and God only knows how many times on this birthday i had mentally played and replayed that conversation,remembering and savouring every word in his voice. I always remember him and his family in my prayers and ask for his forgiveness for the time i could have spent with him and i didn't.

Mama-Bhanja jodi :)

The next thing he taught me was to never lose faith.I remember him narrating numerous incidents that how he had always received help when he needed, just because he held on for a little long and never lost upon the Almighty. Never more had i needed his kind of relentless unwavering faith and its assurance than now in my life. I know now that only when the times are difficult we can see God's hand at work in our lives. When i am weak,God is strong.

Mama n Mum

He taught me that how people remember us is all that matters. There were scores of friends and family members swarming in Medicity where he had been admitted for 5 days following a massive MI. None of them knew what to do,none of them could actually do anything else other than praying for him. And that's what everybody did. And that's how the person who lived life king-size departed from this world. Amongst the prayers of all his family,friends,acquaintances,and anybody and everybody whose life he had touched.
And then he passed off from this world to an another glorious one.


Varuna Singh said...

Beautifully written Manna. Very true and touching ... he will forever be in our hearts!!!! - Varuna

Dr Mandeep Khanuja said...

Thanks di...cudn't think of anyway better to remember mamu other than writing something and sharing it with all of you. That's how he's still here for all of us.

Vicky Dada (Vikas) said...

I like the beards of the men in various pics. I too want to grow like that.. :)

Dr Mandeep Khanuja said...

Plz do !!! Always looks 'manly' ! Sorry for sounding prejudiced,but i really do ;)


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